I Got This – 2019 is My Fucking Year

I started 10xdecision on March 3rd, 2017 – almost 2 years ago.

I’ve been essentially dealing with the same problems for my entire life as an entrepreneur and frankly as a person.

I started my business in May of 2016.  The remainder of 2016 and most 2017 we’re great fucking years.  2018 I lost, and I lost fucking hard.  I’m still recovering, but I’m learning.

Learning early is the benefit.

2019 is my fucking year.

• I know what I’m good at
• I know the difference between a good deal and a bad deal
• I know when I’m slacking off and how to get back on
• I’m bootstrapping this whole fucking year
• I love this shit

I love this shit – Business is My Thing

I was snowboarding the other day and for the first time in a very very fucking long time I was more excited about business than snowboarding.  I fucking LOVE snowboarding.

I can still remember the first sale I closed on my own….  The feeling, the rush and how proud I was.

I closed 3 today.  I asked for the $$$ and shutted the fuck up.

Let him do the talking and walked out with signed agreement.

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I thought to myself today that if I was going to do less snowboarding that I needed a thing outside of work.

I realized that work is my thing.  Being an entrepreneur is my thing.

I almost want to delete this blog and start over to just have 100% positive-kick-ass posts.  I’ve been in my own head for too long.  If you think it’s going to be hard then it’s going to be hard.

“He who says he can and he who says he can’t – both are usually right”.

Let’s do this shit and smash some goals.  The super life – here I come!!

Identifying the True Nature of Success

“People go to seminar after seminar thinking if they can just get that magic bullet they can be successful.”

“They are dead wrong – there are no magic bullets”

When I first read “You can’t learn how to ride a bicycle at a seminar” by Sandler I found the I / R Theory quite interesting.

Similarly the Law of Attraction summed up eloquently in the video below:

The nature of success is belief, positivity and in my opinion momentum.  It’s been too long that I’ve been searching for that particular event that will catapult my business to 20k /mo.

That was the wrong way of looking at it, but that’s the game that the guru’s, coaches, etc etc always played you into to reach their goals.

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The difference for me now in 2019 is that I’m no longer looking for that magical course, easy win, or event that will launch me to 20K /mo.

My focus is on improving my “I” and internal belief through:

• Daily Affirmations
• Daily Goal Reviewing
• Tactical Training – watching videos just like this
• Setting up my body for success by.. eating right.  Sleeping well.  Devoting time for me.  Devoting time for family.

My second focus is taking action & execution:

• Daily action reviews
• Keeping track of KPIs
• Planning my day, everyday

Those are the things that will get me there.

2018

There are 4 parts of life.

• Income
• Lifestyle
• Health
• Family

Looking back on 2018 I excelled in lifestyle and family, but failed in income and health.  I’ve got more time than ever due to my home office lifestyle to spend with my family.  I’ve got time for my hobbies again as well.

Income has dropped a little bit since I sold my personal training business.  My health also dropped because I’m much less active.

I’ve notice a recurring trend.  I’m following heavily in my business partner’s footsteps.  Buying into new training.  Going into different routes.  Basically it’s shiny shit syndrome all over again.

2019 – Changes

• Productivity:  I need to get back to high levels of action.
• Bootstrapping:  I’ve got the training I need.  I still know that I’m rather event driven.  The process is key.  I need to focus on developing that.
• Hopeium.  That’s the worst drug.  I can’t base my actions on what if.

 

 

Courses, Investments, Debt…  VS Action, Execution & Consistency

I’ve been having a hard time in business lately.  I sold one business to free up time to focus on my main marketing business, but I’m not sure if that was the best call.

At this point I’ve absorbed my losses in income, which is a considerable win.

Freeing up the time wasn’t the best idea, because I don’t do well with ample amounts of time.

Getting back to the point.  My hard time in business is apparent because it’s not been fun.  I’ve been depressed.  I’m in debt still, up to my eye balls and only now getting out of it.

Wrapping up 2018, I might claim a loss this year.  I’ve invested so much money in different programs, but haven’t backed them up with the consistent action that’s needed to make them work.

In reality I’ve already got all the programs I need, but yet I’m still searching for some event that will change my business forever.  I’m still susceptible to event driven success (from unscripted by MJ demarco)  Even now I’m sitting on a webinar screen waiting for the next shiny shit to buy, but I don’t want to buy it, but if I think it’ll work then I will.

FUCK.  I joined my first program ever Rich Dad Poor Dad and didn’t execute.  It costed $5000.  I can still remember being on the phone with their rep, my wife and asking her for permission to do it.  It was a hard decision, but she did.  I didn’t execute enough and to be frank there were some definite issues with that program.  Buying a house with seller financing (they carry the note and take all the risk) to achieve a few hundred of residual income is a serious endeavor for little reward.

I then joined JK, it was a $4200 investment and I didn’t tell my wife.  In fact, I told her I was doing something for 30 days.  I did OK, I got client and he was paying me $250 a month.

I’ve burned through $15,000 of savings bonds, cashed out a 401K, another retirement plan, got a business line which I racked up 20K on and spread another 15K over a handful of different credit cards to live the life of a struggling, stressed entrepreneur.

Damn.

That’s the bad part.

The good part is that I sold my other business that was eating up my time.  That prevented me from seeing my daughter.  Now I’ve got time freedom.  I get her up 4/5 mornings per week, play with her every afternoon, see her grow.  I snowboard once a week, every week, with zero lift lines.

I’m able to maintain my income without doing much work.  My business is setup well.  The majority of the work I do is to create new income.

I see the vast, lucrative and possible opportunities out there.  2019 is my year for the taking.

I’ve been the investment guy.  Poured close to $100K into myself.

I know my faults, video games, unhealthy eating, bad clients, youtube, facebook, sometimes this blog, cigars…  there’s a lot of them.

I know what it takes to win.  I’ve done it before.

Now, it’s it comes down to the daily struggle.  Life is hard.  Being an entrepreneur is hard.  Focusing is hard, but that’s OK.  What’s also hard is having to deal with the emotional toll of not focusing, of not winning, of falling into my faults.

2019 is my year.

No more courses, unless I can get someone else to pay for them.

$1000 a month increase in MRP (monthly recurring profit) each month is my goal.

That’s $50 per working day, totally doable.

Looking Back at My Entrepreneurial Career

I took a course recently on prospecting.  I loved the content and was very hopeful that I’d grow my bottom line to that magical 10K a month.

It didn’t, or I didn’t?  That’s the question.

I think about all the courses I’ve done.  All the shiny shit I’ve chased.  How I sold my other business.  How I’m supporting my family with this business.

I think back to when it used to be fun.  Nowadays I look at my profit/loss 5 times a day, throw investment $$ on new credit cards, sold one of my cars recently to pay back some debt and it’s not as fun as it once was.

I know that entrepreneurs are a unique breed because we do things that not everyone wants to do.  But, I’m tired of investing.  My new “coach” wants me to focus on the sale, rather than the results I can give.  I don’t like that.

I’m happy to sell, but not unless I can produce serious results.

Going forward I need to get back to the basics.  Stop investing every dollar.  Start living the lifestyle more.  Stress less.  Chip away at my debt.  Just focus on doing what works, instead of being always on to the next thing.

I’ve done the heavy investment, but it fucks with my head.  I need to be good on $$$ to sleep at night.

Keeping on Track

I’m on track to having another good month.  I’m growing and gaining new clients basically regularly now.

However, I still feel myself falling back into those same patterns..

• Inconsistent work
• Not following up
• Going after the quick money
• Getting focused on other things
• Spending time on how I’ll spend my money rather than taking the consistent actions to make it

I watched a couple movies lately that struck a chord. Conor Mcgregor’s Notorious and Ronnie Coleman’s movie as well.

The level of hard work and consistency that both of those men had was insane.  They put in the work every single day.

Hard work, works.

Thing I need to do now is plan my calendar out the night before.  Stay consistent.  Stop chasing the quick buck.

I took a few website deals and while I need the money… it’s not the best use of my time and it throws me off of other tasks.

So the thing is, what needs to change?  I’ve been through this same pattern every time I start winning.  Something needs to change.  I know I need to work harder.  I know I need to stay consistent. When I take the time to put those actions back in play…  I’ll have a setup calendar.  I’ll have my daily focus locked in, but the problem still is actually doing it.

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Why is that a problem?  I want to know the problem behind the problem.

When you’re doing a nose-slide on a down rail the trick behind the trick is to make sure you’re properly aligned.  If you up to the rail at the wrong angle you’ll be setup for failure.

What’s the problem behind the problem?  Nervousness.  I’m afraid of failing.  It’s the big leagues now, this isn’t a side business.  This is my main business, it’s the only source of upward mobility for my family.

Yeah, but that’s not me.  I’m not afraid of failure.  I can handle a no.

So, what is it?  What’s the big deal.  What do I need to change to do it.

This is coming full-circle to a previous post that I wrote a short while ago.  The preconceived notion that success is an event rather than a process.

Right now, I’m writing this blog post trying to sift through my thoughts and figure out why I’m not doing exactly what I need to be doing to be growing my business.

When in reality it’s not a problem..  It’s natural.  When you’re first going off jumps snowboarding there’s a lot of preparation.  You watch other people hit the jump to see how many turns they take, how fast they are going or to see how much pop they are giving themselves.

You muster up your strength and hit it yourself.  Usually it works out pretty well because you did your due diligence.  You’ve been preparing.  However, after you’ve “got it down” or you started “winning” in the park you stop preparing as much and start going for it, or winging it.

Those falls hurt.

I think that’s exactly what’s happening here.  I’ve had some wins.  I’m starting to not prepare as much.  I’m looking for a problem that I have, when really the problem is my process.

I just need to keep my process the same.  Keep focused.  Keep consistent.  Keep my eyes on the prize.

I’ll be taking a day off each week this year for snowboarding, but I definitely won’t if I’m not making any money.

I’ve got to dive into the process.  Do more content.  Talk to my audience more.  Listen to my audience more and really only take the deals that I want to take.

That’s it!

I started this blog 10xdecision.com to get myself to do it.

It being, what I knew I needed to do, but didn’t.

I’m still there.  20, 30, 40 thousand dollars in courses, credit card debt, investments, failed business relationships…  I’m still there.

I’m still not doing what I need to be doing.

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I will say that things are different now, because I’m 100% conscious of it.  I have a daily focus that I’m not focusing on.  I’ve got a calendar that I’m filling out every night before I start my day the next morning… that I’m not following.

When I’m put into a situation that I don’t have any other choice to handle – I’m on, I crush it and it’s natural.

When it comes to following up, doing my TDs, and focusing on the task at hand it’s not working.  I know I have serious ADHD – so I need aderal?

This business is my life.  I need it to be successful.  I’ve written close to 100 blog posts about my ups and downs, made pacts with myself (I feel stupid even writing this point, yet AGAIN).

What do I need to do in order to follow through, get things done and succeed in business as well as life?

Step to solving any problem:

1. You need to realize you have a problem.  (done!)
2. Create steps to solve it

So I just googled ADHD.  I read a post on thefastlaneforum about how Gluten is a neurotoxic as I was thinking about getting some adderall.

I’ll have to get rid of gluten.  I’d rather do that than take drugs.

Next part of this is retracing what works.  When am I good?  I’m good when I have a outside obligation.  My outside obligation is to make sense of that $1500 check that’s getting invested every single month.

I’m going embarrass myself and go to my coach for help.  But I really don’t want to.  Thinking back to reading the Millionaire Fastlane. MJ Demarco talks about how entreprenuership is viewed as an event rather than a process from the outside.  How side walkers (like myself, even though I think I’ve made some progress) think about something magical happening that’ll create success.

When really it’s just process.  I’ve solved step one.  I know I have a problem.  My process to fix the problem is keeping up with my planning of the day the night before, my daily focus and tracking my time.

It’s like doing crossfit.  I really wanted a cigar today, and I still do… but I know that crossfit is going to be fucking rough and I’m my cardio is finally improving.  So I can’t dare put cigarette smoke inside of my body.

It’s like hoping on those coaching calls every single week.  That’s crossfit for entrepreneurs.  Sitting in those meetings without my shit together is going to be really fucking rough.  My business is improving.  I had my best month ever last month.  So I can’t dare skip on following through with exactly what I put down on my fucking calendar.

Yesterday was OK.  I wrote about Keeping Up My Momentum and did OK, but not great.

3 Things That Would Make Today Amazing:

• 3 Greens on my Daily Focus (I got 3 yellows yesterday)

• 3 Appointments set

• Not having to worry about work the second my wife and daughter get home

I got 1 green, 1 yellow and a Red.  No appointments set and was still working when my wife got home.

I took an invitation to breakfast with a local colleague which was good to accept.  He’s the right person to be spending time with.

I did an hour call with my business partner and talked about the new program he’s doing.  I’m going to take part in it because the $$ makes sense, but I thought about what I can bring to the table.  In reality I’ve been gaining a new client every 2-3 months.

I’m taking a new program, doing these posts, carving out time on my calendar, and tracking EVERYTHING from minutes spent to focuses achieved.  However, I’m still not prospecting enough.  I’m doing a lot of getting ready still.

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Let’s get to it!

3 Things I’m Grateful For:

• My business, it has it’s ups and downs, but provides for my family and is a true passion of mine.  Not too long ago I was fully addicted to video games, now I’m addicted to becoming the best marketer I can and providing the best results for my clients.
• My health, I take it for granted sometimes, but waking up in the morning without serious problems like my brother’s terrible headaches is a big deal.  It’s easy to forget how good you have it.
• My family, my mom and dad have provided well for me.  Although I’m not taking their path in life and they’ve instilled a poor money mindset there is a lot to be said with growing up having food on the table and going to a good school.

3 Things That Would Make Today Amazing:

• 3 Greens
• 3 Appointments or 1 new client
• Prospecting SOP and Prospecting Completed

Morning motivation watched:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QVYO7kXOpXo