I don’t know where to begin…

Basically I bent over backwards for a client because I was high on Hopium…  and it fell through.  I invested a ton of $$$ because I knew it was going to work.  It didn’t – I’m literally 20K in Debt.

I made the “mistake” of starting to live like I was making it because I was so sure that it was going to work out.

There I am, no a few hundred bucks to my name and “The Draw” which is my business line is at capacity… a full 20,000.  I’ve been battling with this over the last few weeks.  The battle is in my head.

Part of me thinks… “I can’t believe I was so stupid” and then that little voice starts talking about all the investments I made that haven’t worked out.  The other part of me looks at the brighter side.  I’ve sold my personal training business.  I’ve got enough $$ coming in to stay afloat and I’ve got more than enough time to create a beautiful business for myself.

Where do I go from here?

I was taking a look at my manifestation goals and a letter to myself before I started purging my thoughts and writing this post.  I’ve thought many times about starting a new blog and deleting this website because this contains all the times I failed.  It’s tracked all my shortcomings.  It’s embarrassing.

I’m thinking about doing another blitz or making some drastic change that’ll work.  Fuck – I’ve tried it all.  I just want to beat the shit out of this keyboard.

How can I start winning?  Truly winning…?  What do I need?

The truth is – I don’t need anything else.  I don’t need another book to enlighten me.  I don’t need another training course.  I’ve got all the tools that I need to live the super life.

I just need to do the work.

That’s it – I just need to do the work.

I’m going to check back in 30 days from now.

The changes that I’m implementing are:

• 4 Hours of Solid Prospecting Every Day (solid = I feel good about the action taken)
• 1 Hour of Sales Training Every Day (rehearse my scripts, listen to my phone calls, practice)
• 1 Hour of Content Every Day (putting myself out there as a marketer on Facebook, Youtube, Linkedin and online)

That’s 6 hours Every Day (including weekends).  Weekends will be hard to fit that time into my schedule, but I will make it work.

My scoreboard is my 20K in Debt and end of month income:  (fill it in when I figure it out).